Im learning in order to create you need to stay vulnerable. I feel very vulnerable at the moment coming to the second  anniversary of the death of my partner.

I have a variety of projects in there gestation and making period at the moment.

I joke that I feel comfortable proceeding with ten and more projects at the same time.

These feel exceptionally important at the moment. They reflect the hours of repetitive technique.

Im am completely frustrated about getting my work out into the world. Nearly all the models I come across are not fit for purpose. Another reflection of our society I believe.

I am angry why are artists expected to compete, pay fees to pay for exhibitions that they will not be accepted for. It is hard to cope with constant rejection and not feeling part of an artistic community. Being expected to work unrealistic hours for unrealistic remunerations. What is happening?